Faith. To Each His Own.

If there’s one thing I truly cannot stand, and I am going to assume that almost everyone has had this happen at least once in their life (if you haven’t it’ll happen eventually if your in America), are the people who try to argue and tell you that your faith is wrong.

I had that not to long ago, on Friday now that I think back. I was looking for someone to help me take pictures for the web sites I manage since I couldn’t find mine. I wasn’t having any luck and I decided, “What the hell, I might as well call this guy and hang out, he’s not that bad.” I regret that thought now, to be honest. We will call my friend, “K” for the time being. So I called K and asked him what’s up and asked if he had a digital camera we could use. He said he did and I told him what I needed to do and I offered to buy him lunch after I picked him up. He was cool with that and so I was feeling good about this.

I get to his house and he tells me to go up to his room and he’ll meet me there. I do so and I see all this Christian religious stuff. Bible open, religious posters and all and I’m thinking is, “Damn, I don’t remember this about him, but it’s good he’s got a faith now. More power to him.” He points it out to me and I mention how I noticed it and I’m proud to see that. So he pops in this CD, and what is it? Rock Christian music. I mean, it was a good band, P.O.D., but for the most part, I was thinking “SHOOT ME NOW!” We finally get to my car and I play my CD’s in respect to him, and I ask if he’s ready for lunch. During the ride he won’t shut up for a second about his faith and kept inviting me into his church. I kept kindly declining his offer and told him its okay, I have my own faith and it would be an awkward situation for all of us if I went there. Oh yeah, he knows I’m pagan by the way. -.-

So finally we get to the place where I need pictures taken of stuff for the site. HE FINALLY SHUTS UP, CUZ HE’S FOCUSED ON THE PICTURES! THANK THE GODDESS!! This lasted a good time, but once we were done and heading back home for a bit, he starts up again. He even got into a convo with Mom and tried to offer her to borrow “The Passion” from him so Mom could try to get me to watch it. HELL NO! That movie is so wrong I won’t watch it. It bashes the Jews, BAD. The Jews weren’t out bashing Christ, okay? They were most likely in their homes, celebrating the Sabbath like it’s tried to explain.

So now I gotta make a trip to Best Buy and he wants to follow cuz he wants to get a CD (this guy can’t drive btw). So I’m like, sure whatever. I go there and see my buddies and talk to them while I have one hook me up and help me get my movie, InuYasha 2. YAY! Anywho, I talk to them and then we get ready to walk out and he’s still talking about his faith (this is getting old, can ya tell?) and he sees that my friend “A” has a Christ fish on the back of her car. He’s like “oh, you’re a believer of Christ too?” and she’s like “Use to be, then I went to Florida and when I came back I kinda lost my faith, but I still believe, just also with Buddha and other things too.” And now, he tries to f*%#ing convert her. She stands her ground, GO HER! She mentions Dogma (one awesome movie) and says how she goes with what they say, “It’s not a matter of what faith you have, it a matter of that you have an idea.” Again, GO HER! And of course, what does he say before she goes? The one thing that p***ed me off to no extreme…..

“If you don’t have faith in Christ, then you don’t have faith at all.”

Now I’m going to let you think of how much that offended me, and we’ll see if anyone can truly understand that. My faith has been around way f&^%ing longer than his or even the Hebrew faith. Ours is basically the father faith (or mother, whichever way you wanna see it :-P). So yeah, I was…..”Upset”.

Back to the story, we got into a heated argument while driving back to his house, but it eventually started to cool, even though I kept trying to get him to shut up because he was doing the whole “holier than thou” and “I don’t need to defend my god like this because he doesn’t need us to prove his greatness”. cough-bullsh@t-cough-cough. Anywho, he keeps going and questioning me on why I left Christianity all the way to his house. I felt like my b@tch of an ex after 2 and a half years of a relationship was in the car with me. We finally get to his house and we’re waiting for someone to show up..well, he is.. I’m waiting for time to pass so I can make a good excuse for leaving and not just leave to show how offended I was, even after his next action.

He looks through his bible to point out things that I’ve noticed that are f#%&ed up about the faith and guess what… he can’t find them. HA! I loved it! What he did next really got under my skin. HE CALLED HIS F#%*NG PASTOR/PRIEST TO TALK TO ME OVER THE PHONE TO TRY AND MAKE ME UNDERSTAND THINGS AND CONVERT ME. AND HE PUT HIS PASTOR UNDER THE IMPRESSION THAT SOMEONE SAID THINGS TO HURT ME ABOUT MY FAITH IN AN “UNCHRISTIAN” MANNER THAT’S WHAT MADE ME LOSE MY FAITH. SO NOW I’M UNDER ATTACK BEING TOLD TO CONVERT BY A PASTOR/PRIEST! I’m just standing firm against this guy, telling him what I feel, what I think and believe and I’m just like…..no…. I was half tempted to tell the pastor about my visit from the goddess, but I knew he’d say it was Satan deceiving me so I ignored it cuz then it would’ve truly gotten heated to me growing hatred, which is close right now anyways.

Anywho, the pastor dude finally gives up and then I wait a little more and finally get the f&#@ outta dodge and go to do other things so I could calm down. Needless to say, I’m gonna be as little social as I can with “K” cuz he offended me on how he acted towards me, to my friend “A” and so many more. I don’t plan on spending time with him anymore, nor has my respect for Christians remained the same… it’s only gotten lower… I’m pagan and I’m f&^$ing proud of it… deal with it. I don’t shove my beliefs down your throat, so don’t shove yours down mine!

            ~Forsaken Angel